Alwaysdrmz!!!!!!

2011

2011-12-31T21:22:00.004+05:30

None could stop the time. yet another year comes to an end. Oh yes so soon!!!

what have i done for this whole 365 days ?

Have i become a better person ?

Did i learn something new ?

Did i make new friends ?

Any habit in me changed ?

Was i just eating, sleeping and working the SAME

Well am not sure if i become better person, but did take some brave decisions, which i still don't know is right or wrong. Even if i am going to fail on those i just want to make sure to fail in MY Way.

Last 3 years had given me lot of learning. Specially what i learnt this year was how valuable our life is. All could be over in a fraction of second.

An accident, how it could turn everything OFF. When i stayed with my father in the hospital with sleepless nights watching 2yr to 80yr old coming there at odd times for odd injuries, it struck in me that, it could have been even me on that stretcher rushing to the ICU.Life is full of surprises, both good and bad.You never know what is going to come out of your bag and when.

If you ever want to do something,say something, love someone, forgive someone,let it be always NOW.

Forgive yourself for your mistakes

It is ok to do a few.But,

Never loose the lesson in it.

Forgive others for what they did to you

You may not get a chance again to forgive them

Forget your loss

Learn to live with some pain

Try a little harder on your failures

Nothing is never too late to start.

start today from zero

Don't give up on it till you reach.

Wishing all a very Happy and prosperous 2012.

Support

2011-06-02T20:52:00.007+05:30

There goes a saying "Behind every successful man there is a woman", lets rephrase it a bit and call it as "there is someone behind each successful person" be it a male or a female.

Someone who trusts you, loves you for what you are and not for what they want you to be.

A person who believes in you that you will have your day.

Who sits next to you with their arms around to let you know that it's OK to have some failures.

A person who is proud of your smallest deeds.

A person who calmly stands beside you in support when the whole world walks away taking out the hope from you.

It might be any relation a parent/sibling/friend or a spouse.

How many of us have such people in life ?

If you have one, what are you waiting for?Go ahead and win the world.

If you don't have one yet, never worry you are going to find one soon in your journey, provided you walk on your journey without giving up.

Silence

2011-06-02T20:38:00.001+05:30

Sometimes i don't want to talk, silence is mostly comfortable to me in your presence.

You might differ me in this ,but i don't know how to make you understand what happens inside me when you are next to me. I simply just can't talk when you are around me because am afraid if you would find out what's going on within me...

Moments

2011-04-16T15:11:00.001+05:30

There had been moments when i wished you were beside me,
holding me up and not letting me fall.

assuring me that things will be OK sooner.
from where did i get the courage to let you walk with someone else?
still wondering how much more i am going to lose.

I keep imagining how warm your hands would be around me
Will i ever get to feel it for real ?

Euthanasia

2011-04-03T20:45:00.001+05:30

Euthanasia , a debatable topic. I very much agree that no one has the right to decide if someone can die even if they would want to. On reading about Aruna's case recently i couldn't say if the judgement given by the SC was correct. She has suffered in the state of being a vegetable for 37 long years, what more is left for her to suffer.What wrong did she do in her life to get this life time punishment? The wardboy who assaulted and raped her when she was 27 years was freed in few years.But will aruna ever get back her life?

Also on the other note while hearing about her friends and colleagues in KEB who has been taking very good care of her for 37 years in hospital is simply amazing. I wonder how many of us would do the same for our own family members.I am not sure if a person like us who can talk, communicate,express,love would ever get such wonderful friends as aruna.

If aruna who is not able to move or do anything on her own for a long time is able to retain her friends till date, i still keep amazing what kind of a person she would have been before the incident? She would definitely have been a marvelous,lovely and lively person.

Why would such a thing happen to her ?

Everytime things go wrong i would console myself telling

"This also happened for some good for which i don't know the reason now".

How will i ever fit this thought in aruna's case.what good has ever been happened to her since then?

she cannot even express her gratitude to her friends helping.The biggest pain in life is not being able to express oneself to dear and nears.

Where was the so called "GOD" resting when things like this happen? All i could do from my end now is to hope that her soul rest in peace soon without anymore pain.

2010

2010-12-31T19:50:00.001+05:30

Here i come again to this space of after a gap. End of another year.

I have made some biggest decisions of my life in this year and it definitely did not make many around me happy.

Well i din have a choice, as always i listen to myself than any others. It might be an another foolish decision, but Yes, it is mine.

Life might look short when you live in joy, It ain't that short when you struggle on it, days do drag, moments do seem hours.

Sometimes we do wish to put a break on the few moments that we don't have control on, How many times do we succeed on it?

Why don't we just give up on those?

May be take it a little easy.It is not always about winning a situation or having control over it, i have learnt the biggest lesson in my life that it is completely OK to lose few though. May be u fall and get hurt badly, but u would surely rise again.

"That which does not kill us, makes us stronger" - Steel Magnolias (1989)

Keep hanging on and wait for your day to come..It will.

Happy New Year to All !!

May this new year bring you all the goodness.

Each and Every Day..

2010-11-27T09:50:00.000+05:30

Each Time you held her hand
I wish it was Mine..
Each Time you laughed with
I wish it was Me beside you..
Each Time you walked
I waited to accompany you..
Each Time you spoke
I hoped it was about me..
Each day i woke up
Falling in more love with you ..

Vinnai Thandi Varuvayaa....

2010-03-17T09:47:00.002+05:30

The most magical phase of life is the love, it brings in immense change in a person
VTV , a movie which talks about love between Karthik and Jessie. Love starts in an
instinct with no prior notice, Karthik falls for Jessie at first sight. Gautam's movie
always have beautiful heriones on whom we fall in love for no reason.
The confused mind set of Jessie potrays the day today girls...not able to decide on what
they want actually. She cudnt say a complete No or Yes...The worldwide problem of women
heart says YES and the mind says NO

Excellent screenplay and dialogues ..many of those keep ticking in the mind after the movie is over.

Karthik - There wud have been so many guys who were mad at u

Jessie - I guess they din see me through your eyes.

Karthik - I thought it was over ..Jessie said me..Yes its over..dont think

Needless to say about songs by Thamarai...amazing lyrics ..Mannipaya and VTV being my personal favourite..shreya and Rahman on loop in my itunes.

Brilliant climax a very new finish to tamil movies

First love is not just a love..its the love for lifetime

Vinnai Thandi Varuvaya --- Fall in love

============

On watching the movie VTV ..i was wondering..its always easy for a guy to go tell a

girl his love for her.

He chases her on road, bus ,train workplace,restaurant,coffee shop or wherever she goes.

Does love always happens first only for a guy ?

Are there not situations where a girl falls in love with a guy ?..even though he might come in

same bus/train she goes or works in same building or sits beside her daily in office

how many do go out and tell them their love. why hasnt it been easier for girls to let

know what she feels, Is the fear of losing more for girls ? Many times in the fear of losing

or being neglected they accept the failure. They better lock their hearts than let go it freely.

Is it not ok to knock the door once before assuming its locked ?

2009

2009-12-31T23:09:00.004+05:30

Days pass on like a wind, some were breezy, and some were messy.

So soon another year came to an end. If I want to rewind my memory to see what I have done in the past year and what am I going to do in the coming year….

Well this was a year with lot of learning’s, not technically though.

Every day, every happening leaves us a lesson. Few of which we carry forward and many of which it’s better if we leave behind.

Forgive and Forget may be easy to say, very tough to follow.

Everything that happened should have reason, maybe I am not wise enough to understand it.

Like never before I have found myself very confused in many occasions

Life is tough if you are honest, but still I will put up a fight.

Lesser the expectations!! Lesser the disappointment.

For everything that did not happen today, I have a tomorrow to wake up and do it in a better way.

There is no one who can love you better than YOU. Be happy for what U R.

There is no one who can care for you better than YOU, Care for your health.

Love yourself, spend time for your interests, after all life is so big to regret and sit back for what has happened already.

If given a chance to redo anything in the past year, I would better opt to do Nothing.

Always Hope for tomorrow. Which will definitely be a Better Tomorrow!!

Happy New Year!!!

And Another Tag...

2009-10-03T11:29:00.003+05:30

Here goes..a tag passed on by Annam

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4?

Have picked up Dan Brown's The Lost Symbol from LandMark and that's the nearest book to me currently

And the 4^th line on pg 18 is

“The Capitol's massive footprints measures more than 750 feet in length and 350 feet Deep”

Yet another historical mystery

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can & touch air?

Ok stretched n caught the air..but I cant fall in love with it like this ;)

3.What is the last thing you watched on TV?

AXN la “Breaking the Magician Code”

4.Without looking, guess what time it is?

Hmm should be arnd 11:45 AM

5.Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?

Its 11:36 AM :( Konjam miss)

6.With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

T.V sound, washing m/c sound , opp building construction work going on..sooooo noisy arnd me :(

"satham elladha thanimai ketean!!!"

7.When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

Last weekend went to S.Ve Shekar's Vaal Paiyan Play

[ I work from home..so only on weekends I step out :( ]

8.Before you started this Q&As, what did you look at?

Vera enna gmail dhan :)

9.What are you wearing?

Chudi

10.When did you last laugh?

Before sometime reading Vikatan jokes

Jolly Vaali is rocking :)

11.What is on the walls of the room you are in?

Aaniyae adika kudathunu solitaru house owner..so all blank :(:(

12.Seen anything weird lately?

Neriyaa ehda solla..

13.What do you think of this quiz?

Quiz aa ?

14.What is the last film you saw?

Unnai Pol Oruvan – Good one

15.If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?

I would like to own a library of books and DVD's :)

so a big house with a huge collections of Books and DVD's

16.Tell me something about you that I dunno!

Hmm there are lots...

I had a passion for singing :)

17.If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?

I would like to have every people lead an equal life..there shud be no more line of separation as Rich n poor. Everything should be available for all :)

18.Do you like to Dance?

Oh yes :) but whn no one watching !!

19.Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

Asra or Indra

20.Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

Hmm Sidharth

21.Would you ever consider living abroad ?

Yes , if got a chance

22.What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?

A welcome note which ends with a transfer order for me to back to earth :)

Back!!

2009-10-02T22:39:00.001+05:30

Its been quite sometime that i turned towards my blog.
Having a too tough time with work at office. coming back to phase off late.

My Google Reader is piled up with tons of unread posts..i hope to clear them off this weekend.

Had been to bangalore for 15days and meeting the friends was very refreshing :)
Awaiting my next chance to go there and enjoy the climate again.

Catch you all sooner..

Have been Tagged by Annam ..will do it sooooooon :)

Tagged..

2009-08-28T19:09:00.011+05:30

நான் எழுதற முதல் Tag...எழுத அழைத்தவர் நம்ம பாசமிகு அண்ணன் Gils

அழகு என்பது என்ன? நிரந்தரமானதா?

மனசு சந்தோசமா இருக்கும் போது பார்கற எல்லா விஷயமே அழகா இருக்கும். அது நிரந்தரமானதானு கேட்டா , கண்டிப்பா இல்லை நாம இருக்கிற சூழ்நிலைய பொறுத்து, நமக்கு வேற வேற விஷயங்கள் அழகா தெரியும்..பத்து வயசில அழகா தெரிஞ்சது, இருபது வயசில மாறிடும் :)

காதல் மனிதனுக்கு அவசியமா?

காதல் இல்லாத மனுஷனே கிடையாது. ஒரு ஆண்-பெண் க்கு நடுவில வருவது மட்டும் காதல்னு சொல்லிட முடியாது, கண்டிப்பா எல்லார்க்கும் எதாவது ஒன்னு மேல காதல் இருக்கும்..புக்ஸ், சினிமா,கிரிக்கெட், பைக், கார்,பணம்,சாப்பாடு(?அட அப்படி கூட இருக்காங்க)...இப்படி எதாவது மேல அளவு கடந்த ப்ரியம் இருக்கும்...

"காதலே கனவுக்கு வழிகாட்டி....கனவுகளே நாளைய விடியலின் சுவாரசியம்"

So..காதல் அவசியம்தான்

கடவுள் உண்டா?

இருக்கலாம்.

"கெட்டவங்களுக்கு ஆண்டவன் நிறைய கொடுப்பான், ஆனா கைவிட்டிடுவான்

நல்லவங்களை ஆண்டவன் சோதிப்பான் ஆனா கைவிடமாட்டான்" அப்படின்னு சொல்லறாங்க

சில சமயம் நல்லவங்களை ரொம்ம்ம்ம்ம்ப சோதிக்கும் போதுதான்..உண்மையிலே கடவுள் இருக்காறான்னு சந்தேகம் வருது.

பணம் அவசியமா?

கண்டிப்பா பணம் தேவைதான்..எவ்வளவு தேவைங்கறதுலதான் குழப்பம்..

நம்ம தேவைகளுக்கு தகுந்த அளவிற்கு பணம் சம்பாதிக்கணுமா?

இல்லை நம்ம சம்பாத்தியத்துக்குள்ள தேவைகளை அடக்கிகனுமான்னு புரியாம ரெண்டும் மாத்தி மாத்தி துரத்த ஓடிட்டு இருக்கோம் !!

இந்த டேக்கை நான் எழுத அழைப்பது R.Gopi ...என் ப்ளாக் படிக்கற மத்த ஒன்னு ரெண்டு ஜீவனையும்...Gils ஏற்கனவே எழுத சொல்லிட்டாரு :)

Not an Eventful Week

2009-08-19T14:22:00.011+05:30

Well the last week wasn't quite eventful
Just usual work went on...

Weekend was boring too...had slight fever (confirmed its not H1N1 :) ) so din go out anywhere..was at home asusal watching movies .

The weekend list goes as

A Walk to Remember (2002)

A nice love story...Love changes a person in many ways...Do you have a list of things to do before we die? Is there someone in our life who would help us in getting those ? Gently potrayed love story..watch it.

The Killing (1956)

A well planned robbery..goes for a toss because of a woman , a very old movie nice editing which keeps us glued to the screen...but i dint like the climax which was predictable

Meet Joe Black (1998)

What happens if "Death" wants to personify as a human being ?
Death Falls in love :) (whoever it is Love has its own way to seduce ;) i guess )

It was a very long movie , 3hrs..not many would like this movie.
Anthony Hopkin was on his best in this movie.
Brad Pitt and Claire Forlani were good too
I just had these thoughts while watching this movie ( since movie was very long..u can do ur own thinking meantime )

In the journey of life we have many people who were close to us or who had impressed us in many ways ..but who is the one person whom we wish to see or talk to for the last time in our life....do we have words for it..what would we ask them or what would we tell them..What is the one last word you want to tell to the world

Can we wave goodbye to them happily knowing that we wont able to see them at all?

Sometimes we had our ups and downs.
But we're all together and you're mine for a night.
And I'm going to break precedent and tell you my one-candle wish:
That you would have a life as lucky as mine,
where you can wake up one morning and say, "I don't want anything more."
...Sixty-five years...
Don't they go by in a blink...

------- William Parish (Anthony Hopkins)

To Kill a Mocking Bird (1962)

The movie is about a father and kids their pranks on summer vacation, a neighbor who is mentally ill. The father (Gregory Peck - who won Oscar for this ) is a lawyer by profession defends a black man on a rape case against him.

Apart from this story line..there were many more little good things in the movie..which made it very moving.. A must watch movie

There ends the movie list of the week so far..

It rained for 2 days in chennai n sun is Shining bright again.
whoever calls me tells "oh its raining here ..is it not raining in chennai ?"

:( :(:(

Happy Independence Day ...

2009-08-15T11:31:00.001+05:30

Freedom is nothing but a chance to be better

We owe a lot to the Indians, who taught us how to count, without which no worthwhile scientific discovery could have been made!" --Albert Einstein

If there is one place on the face of earth where all the dreams of living men have found a home from the very earliest days when man began the dream of existence, it is India!" --French scholar Romaine Rolland

India conquered and dominated China culturally for 20 centuries without ever having to send a single soldier across her border!" -- Hu Shih, former Ambassador of China to USA

India is the cradle of the human race, the birthplace of human speech, the mother of history, the grandmother of legend, and the great grand mother of tradition. Our most valuable and most astrictive materials in the history of man are treasured up in India only!" --Mark Twain

Let freedom never perish in your hands.

Will you burn me or bury me ?

2009-08-07T21:37:00.000+05:30

My brother is doing a part time job in a company , he comes home and works until very late..most of the time i sit with him to give company, i will be watching a movie on my laptop while he works and we would be having some usual chit chat talks. Or sometimes we keep the FM ON in our mobiles and listen to some ever green classics of Illayaraja.

He is a person who catches cold often or i should say verrrry often.

The other day i slept arnd 1 PM and he was still working..i was awake after sometime by sound of someone shivering ...i woke to see my brother cuddled in his bedsheet n shivering..

I muttered to him " y cant u switch off the A/c if u r feeling cold"

He said he was not getting sleep and din want to wake me up by switching off A/c..

It was his next qn which made me laugh n wake n sit on bed

"Akka, will u bury me or burn me if i am dead"

I was silent for a few mins and said "I will probably toss a coin and see..if heads i will bury u else burn u and by the way u wont die of just cold..if thats the case u would have been a zombie by now'

"Podi" tats all he could tell among his continuous cough

then both of us started laughing and all sleep gone..

Gave him a tablet n turned offf A/c , switched on FM and continued our chit chat..it was when we heard suprabatham we realised its 5:30AM n we havent slept..then went to sleep..

Lucky guy he slept till 11AM next day i had to wake up by 7:30 for my work..

(Tats me n my brother on the snap above....)

Truth..Is it so difficult to hold on ?

2009-08-04T20:21:00.000+05:30

How far would you go to keep up a truth.

What all would you loose to hold on to your words?

How many of us would do that ?

Nothing but the truth is the story of a reporter whose article revealed a coverted CIA agent, The reporter is asked to reveal who her source was by the Govt. Did she tell the govt ? or she remained loyal to her source.

"WITH GREAT PEOPLE THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE BETWEEN PRINCIPLE AND PEOPLE"

When you stand up to a principle its not immediately but in due course of time you come to know the real color of people around you..

At some point you realize there is no one to come along with you, its just you and your principle fighting for survival.

Are we still ready to hold on to our thoughts and words even if everyone walks away from us ?

The movie had a real good and surprising ending..

As time goes by..

2009-08-01T15:05:00.000+05:30

You must remember this
A kiss is just a kiss, a sigh is just a sigh.
The fundamental things apply
As time goes by.

And when two lovers woo
They still say, "I love you."
On that you can rely
No matter what the future brings
As time goes by.

A nice song from the great classic Casablanca.

Right blend of artists , story and music made this movie a wondeful classic.
Beautiful Ingrid Bergman is torn between her love for two men.

How many times in our life do we wish to have a magic within us which would
make us available in 2 or more places at a time.
Oh i too wish to be in my hometown enjoying the happiness of being with my family, at same time i want to be there in my office working...i love my work too..,
i even want to be reading sitting in a library 24*7, be in my TV room watching all movies
But looks like one person, one life is not so enough to do all.There are so many things in life which interests us and make us feel we need to be with it always..

Everything cannot happen always...we are many a time put in a situation to sacrifice some part of it..

"U are part of his work the thing that keeps him going,
If that planes leaves and you are not with him, u 'll regret it
May be not today , May be not tomorrow, but soon and for the rest of ur life"

---------- Humphrey Bogart (Casablanca)

Love is a real pain when you loose it..

Wonderful movie..

Never Late than Ever - 1

2009-07-28T17:51:00.000+05:30

Sarah was waiting in the reception hall of Crazy cuts Advertising Agency. She was a bit nervous. There were 3 more people to be interviewed before her. She just stepped aside to have a glass of water. Was feeling little comfortable after drinking it. She was called in for the interview after 15 minutes.

She entered the room and 3 people were seated in the interview panel.

She greeted them and took the chair.

One of them started off with the standard question,

"Yes Sarah, could you tell us something about yourself ? "

I am Sarah and i have completed my B.A in Arts & Music from the Govt College chennai..

she continued about her interest in painting and also handed them a portfolio of her work..It was circulated amoung the panel and they look impressed seeing her work.

Anything else do you want to tell about you Sarah ? well something about your schooling,about your parents, sister or brother, where do u live..anything else ..asked one of them.

She paused for a minute and continued..

I was not lucky enough to have more people in my life , I don't know who my parents are.., I was brought up by a mission, i studied in the Mission school and i was offered a scholarship for my degree in the college.

She was silent after this...

The other person in the panel began..well lets talk something about the work ..so why did you choose to work in a Advertising agency ?

There was a brightness in her face, i have a passion for drawing and working in an Ad agency would help me quench my passion and also I can make my living...and that is the reason i chose this profession.

There were few more general questions to her.

"Sarah could you please wait outside for sometime, we would let you know the interview feedback in couple of minutes .", the elder one in the panel said.

she came out and sat in the reception hall. Though she was feeling positive about the interview, she had to wait for the results.

And after 10mins as expected, she was selected for the post of Design Assistant and she could join from the next day.

she thanked them and left the building. Happily she took her bus to the hostel.

Vivekananda Mission Hostel - the place she saw all her happiness and sorrow, everyone there had a different story for themselves. But under a single roof they learnt to be happy for whatever they have been blessed with.

Sarah went to her friend brindha's room told her all stories from morning till now , listened to her stories. They both attended the evening prayer in the prayer hall and then ate dinner, went for a small walk within the hostel ground. Sarah was exited about her new job , she felt so great that she is going to start a life on her own, she is not anymore sponsored by someone for her food, clothes or education. She had good sleep that night.

Next day morning she woke up fresh and started getting ready to office. she took out one of her favorite Blue color salwar from her cupboard, she always felt happy wearing that.

She reached office sharp by 9AM , she was asked to sign few papers to finish her joining formalities. Then she was introduced to Ms Megha to meet rest of her team.

Megha was friendly, she asked Sarah about her and took her to their cubicle. She introduced her to the rest of the team. It was a team of 5 people.

Apart from Megha , there was Ranjan, Kishore ..they were all Design engineers and Mr Nandhan was Design Manager who manages the team. All seemed to be quite friendly.

"And Sarah..the other person in our team is Ravindher and he sits in the adjacent cubicle"..Megha told and was walking towards that cabin.

Ravindher was eyeing his laptop and was reading something.

“Ravi” ..Megha called

he din move his eyes from the monitor

“RAVI” ...megha was bit louder this time..

ya megha..ravi responded looking into the monitor.

I just came to introduce sarah, she has joined our team today.

hmm..OK.

megha sighed and left the place, without knowing what else to do sarah followed her.

“Ravi is always a bit strange, just dont mind about it..” said Megha

Nandhan and Kishore were talking as where to allot a seat for sarah, Nandhan was planning to give sarah a seat next to Ravindher as there was a free place after Mani their previous design analyst left.

Kishore mocked at Nandhan, "I guess Mani left the job because he was alloted a seat next to our dear stone Ravi."

"Hey come on man , dont scare sarah now"..Nandhan said , "sarah dont worry, u take the seat in that cabin , if u have any issues come and let me know i will swap your seat with kishore."

All started laughing. Kishore ran to his seat as if someone is going to snatch it.

Sarah went to that cabin, she was given a new laptop and documents which briefed about the company , policies and about her work.

Ravi did not turn once to her side. First time she felt very lonely even in the company of an other person. He was busy into the system.she slightly peeped into his system. He was reading a famous weekly magazine on the net.

Oops is this what he is busy at ?

sarah nodded her head and turned to her computer.

Few minutes later, she could sense someone staring at her. she looked up.

Ravi had turned his chair to her side and was looking at her. His laptop was closed now .

He din bother to take his eyes from her even after she looked up.

She tried to smile and was about to say hi..he stood up from his chair and went out.

One week was over , since sarah had joined. she started getting along with the team. she joined them for lunch and coffee breaks.

Meetings were held alternate days to discuss on the ongoing projects and the expected ones.

Ravi was missing in most of the meetings or he would enter when the meeting was about to end.No one in the team bothered about him nor do he bothered about others.

Sarah and Megha had come to coffee shop. Each picked up a cup of coffee and sat in the table.

Megha started..so sarah how do u like the team and work.

hey..i haven t started any work yet...yes i like the team...but i really feel bored sitting inside that cabin, Ravi has not yet spoken one word until now to me.

Yeah , i know, Ravi is always like this he never talks, never bothers about anything. He has his own way of doing things. But believe me he is a very nice person than many others here. He never talks behind anyone, a very genuine person.

They walked back to their place after coffee. As usual Ravi was reading something in his laptop. sarah turned back to see him again. "He never talks behind anyone" , megha's voice echoed over her mind.

he never talks in front only , where in the world is he going to talk behind. sarah smiled to herself and sat in her place and started reading about their new upcoming project. Nandhan has told her that she would be working on it with someone.

"I do talk to people " , she heard a strong and sharp voice. Surprised she turned to see who it was.

Ravi was sitting on his table facing her. He lifted his eyebrows a bit and gave a smile at her.

"Well..No..i was "...sarah stammered for words..

Ravi got down from his table and walked out.

Did i think out loudly, sarah wondered. Why did he tell like this ?

Next day , she did not see ravi in his place, her eyes turned around for every 10mins to see if he is in.

suddenly , she sensed..why am i looking for him ?

she tried to concentrate on her work. Would he be ill ? where does he stay ? does he has a family ?

Oh God , why am i curious ? is it because i dont know anything about him ? or for what ?

the day went on for her with full of ? ????????? in her mind.

Ravi came in after lunch.

He did not talk anything as usual.

Why cant I start a conversation? If he is not talking should i also be like him ? sarah thought.

what can i ask him ? something about him or about work.? which might he prefer to answer ?

when sarah was framing question in her mind.

Sarah, would you like to join me for a coffee ? Ravi asked.

she was surprised and she just nodded her head.

she followed him to the coffee shop, they picked their coffee and sat in a table. He was so seriously drinking the coffee as if it was the most important work in his life. He did not utter a word until his last sip of the coffee.

So, you liked your seat ? Finally he spoke. she just smiled back.

You might have heard from others in the team , that seat is a punishment seat. He laughed out loud. you know something , no one dares to sit there. He was silent for some more time , he was watching outside the window. It was slightly raining outside.

His mobile beeped for a reminder. He checked it and told Ok come lets leave, its time for meeting. While walking back, sarah thought so he keeps reminders for the meeting but never attends it. what a person is he ?

Meeting was on the new project. It was going to be for a new client and on a much bigger budget for the first time. Nandhan briefed about the project. They have to design an Ad for a popular car.

( To be continued ...)

After a Gap..

2009-07-28T17:48:00.000+05:30

Its been quite sometime since i blogged...No big or false reasons as no time..its mere laziness.

will be moving my posts in tamil to my wordpress id

http://alwaysdrmz.wordpress.com

will continue to use this blog for my posts in english..

i hope and wish to blog on a regular basis....let me see how much of it i do...

Writing In...

2009-03-31T15:25:00.000+05:30

Started my scribblings in

http://alwaysdrmz.wordpress.com as well...

நட்பு

2007-08-05T10:09:00.000+05:30

அன்பின் இலக்கணம் நீ
ஆனந்தத்தின் உறைவிடம் நீ
இயற்கையின் ஓவியம் நீ
ஈரமான ரோஜா நீ
உயிரின் மூச்சும் நீ
ஊமையின் மொழியும் நீ
எங்கும் நிறைந்தவள் நீ
ஏழையின் சிரிப்பும் நீ
ஐம்பெரும் காப்பியம் நீ
ஒளி வீசும் நிலவு நீ
ஓர் மெல்லிய பூங்காற்று நீ
ஔவையின் காவியம் நீ

ஆம் என்றென்றும் என் உயிர் தோழி நீ.......

நண்பர்கள் தின வாழ்த்துக்கள்!!!!!!

ஏதேதோ மாற்றம்.....

2007-03-31T20:48:00.000+05:30

ஏதேதோ மாற்றம் செய்து
என்னை நீ மாற்றினாயே
எனக்குள்ளே இருந்து கொண்டு
என்னை நீ வாட்டினாயே

உயிரை நீ எடுத்துவிட்டாய்
என் ஜீவன் தொலைத்துவிட்டாய்
மௌனத்தின் மொழியாலே
உன் காதல் சொல்லிச் சென்றாய்

என் காதல் தீரவில்லை
என் விழியும் மூடவில்லை
நீ மட்டும் போதும் கண்ணே
என் உயிரும் போகும் வரையில்

என் மூச்சில் நீதான் அன்பே
என் உயிரும் நீதான் என்பேன்
ஒரு வார்த்தை சொன்னாய் அன்று
உயிர் முழுதும் பறித்தாய் இன்று

வாழ்வு இருக்கும் காலம் வரையில்
உன் மடியில் சரணம் ஆவேன்
உயிர் விட்டுப் போகும் நொடியில்
எனக்குள்ளே உந்தன் ஜீவன்....

--------- சிம்புவோட காதல் அழிவதில்லை படத்தோட பார்க்காத போது போது பாட்டோட first 4 line ட்யூன் கொஞ்சம் பிடிச்சு போய் அந்த impression la எழுதினது..

கருவறை கதறல்.....

2007-03-24T14:53:00.000+05:30

எழுந்து வா பாரதி
நீ கண்ட கனவுகளை
நனவாக்க
உன் ஆசைப்படி ஒரு
புது யுகம் படைக்க
பிறக்கவுள்ளேன் நான்

நிலவில் கால் வைக்கத்தானே
ஆசைப்பட்டாய் நீ
ஆனால் இதோ
நிலவில் ஒரு புது
மானிடம் படைக்க
பிறக்கவுள்ளேன் நான்

உன் வாக்குப்படி
நிமிர்ந்த நடையும்
நேர் கொண்ட பார்வையும்
என் கருவறை பாடமாகிறது

உன் கனவினை
நிஜமாக்க
பிறக்கப் போகும்
என்னை இந்த
கருவறைக்குள் இருந்து
மட்டும் உயிரோடு
மீட்டுத் தர
எழுந்து வா பாரதி....

என் நிஜத்தை நிழலாக்கி
உன் ஆசைகளை சாம்பலாக்கி
என்னை
கருவுக்குள்ளே புதைக்கும்
இந்த மதியற்ற
மானிடம் கண்டு
எனை மீட்க
எழுந்து வா பாரதி ....

கவிதை கேளுங்கள்.............!!!!

2007-03-21T21:46:00.001+05:30

ஒரு நாலு மாசம் பதிவு எதுவும் போடலை....
என்ன காரணம் ... ?

வேலை அதிகம் , சாப்பிடாம தூங்காம ஆபீஸ்லயே இருந்தேன்....., அப்படி இப்படின்னு பொய் எல்லாம் சொல்லாத நல்ல (ரொம்பவே நல்ல ) பொண்ணு நான்.

என்னோட சோம்பேறித்தனம் தான் ஒன் அன் ஒன்லி ரீசன்...

டைம் கிடைக்கும் போது எல்லாம் என் டைரியில் எழுதிய கிறுக்கல்களில் (?) ஒன்று...

ப்ரியமானவளே,

**விளையாடும் உன்
விழிகள் செய்த
வினையால்
விழுந்ததடி
என் இதயம்

**உதடுகள் கூட
உண்மையாக சிரிக்க
மறுக்கும் இவ்வுலகில்
உன் விழிகள் கூட
புன்னகைப்பதேன்

**வார்த்தையாய் நீ
பேசிய எதுவும்
வாக்கியமாய் என்
மனதில் நுழையாமல்
தடை செய்கிறது
உன் விழி பேசும்
மொழிகள்

**உறங்க நினைத்து
மூடிய என்
விழிக்குள், மூடாத
உன் விழிகள்
வஞ்சம் செய்வதேன்

**மலை போல் வளைந்த
உன் புருவங்களுக்கு
கீழ் , நதிபோல் உன்
இரு கண்கள்

**பேசாமல் பேச
வைக்கும்
பேசாத விழிகளே
விலகிப் போங்கள்
என் நினைவிலிருந்து...
கனவிலேனும்
உறங்க
ஆசை எனக்கு........

Vadivelu and QA Team!!!

2006-11-10T22:33:00.000+05:30

Edhu oru Fwd Mail than.....

Namma Vadivelu ,Avar panra periya project la he is one of the Module Leader and avarukku keezhe rendu moonu peru irukkanga....

oru naal avar team mate odi varaan......
"thalaiva..thalaiva...namma code la bug pottutaanga thalaiva..."
Aavesa vadivelu veliyae varaar... "evan pottathu bug?"
"Namma testing team kattathurai thaan thalaiva..."
"Kattathurai ku coding theriyalennu ninaikkaren..athaan namma module la bug podarathae avanukku velaiya pochu."
Vadivelu and other team members aavesama poranga Testing team ku... Vadivelu ketkarar
"Evan avan en code la bug pottathu"
Testing team Lead Kattathurai thirumbi paarkarar..
Kattathurai: "Enna sonne..seriya ketkale...pakkam vanthu sollu"
Vadivelu : Un cubicle kulla naan vara maaten.... En aalai anupparen..avanukku bathil sollu
(sends in his team mate)
Team mate : Evanda enga module la bug potathu
Kattathurai becomes tense.. Vadivelu calls from behind : Deiii..
Kattathurai : Enna
Vadivelu : unaku thairiyam iruntha ippo bug podu
Kattathurai opens the Bug tracker and assigns a defect against Vadivelu's module... A shocked vadivelu tries to escape from that place.. athukkulla the testing team surrounds him...
Vadivelu : ungalaiyellam paartha enakku siripa irukku
Kattathurai (smiles)
Vadivelu : En module la ithu varaikkum yaarum bug pottathu illa
Kattathurai : pona vaaram thaane rendu bug kandupidichu assign pannen
Vadivelu : Athu pona Build ku anupichathu..naan intha Build pathi solren
Kattathurai takes up the bug list and keep assigning bugs to Vadivelu team
Vadivelu : Venaam.... (After 2nd bug, slows down) Venaam......... Venaam.... Valikkuthu...... Azhuthuduven...... (starts crying) Azhuthuduven...... ippave daily 9 poren...ini mel ungalala veetukke poga mudiyathapadi aayidum.... (cries)
Kattathurai : Antha periya list eduda
Vadivelu (kalavaramagi) : athu ennathu
Kattathurai : Severity number sollu maaple... As vadivelu looks in terror, Kattathurai keeps assigning lots of Sev 1 bugs to Vadivelu module
A dejected Vadivelu comes back to his cubicle... Apppo other module ppl talks among themselves...
"ivvalo bugs vanthirukke.. module nijammave romba complex ah irukum pola....sema buthisaali nu than ivarukku koduthirukkanga"

Ultimate Finish:

Vadivelu : ippadi usupethi vittu usupethi vitte code ah ranagalam aakidarangappa...

Vadivelu to his team mates - Yenda, innumada intha project la nammala nambaraainga

தூறல் நின்று போனதா !!!!

2006-11-02T21:48:00.000+05:30

எல்லார் மாதிரி நானும் தமிழில் வந்துட்டேங்க...
தேடி தேடி டைப் அடிக்கறதுதான் கஷ்டமா இருக்கு...
சீக்கரமா பழகணும்.....
பழைய போடோஸ் எல்லாம் பார்த்துட்டு இருந்ததின் விழைவு தான் இந்த blog

ஹாஸ்டல் லைப் எல்லார்க்கும் கிடைக்கறது இல்லை ,

அந்த வகையில் நான் ரொம்ப கொடுத்து வைத்திருக்கேன்.......

4 வருஷம் எப்படி போகுதுனே தெரியாது...

கவலைனா கிலோ என்ன விலை ??

அப்படி வாழ்ந்த வாழ்க்கைக்கு ஈடு இணை இன்று வரை இல்லை.

சரி என் ஹாஸ்டல் லைப் பத்தி சொல்லறேன்......

முதல் நாள் பீஸ் எல்லாம் கட்டிட்டு , லக்கேஜ் குடுத்துட்டு அப்பா ,அம்மா டாட்டா சொல்லிட்டு போகும் போது கொஞ்சம் கஷ்டமாத்தான் இருந்தது...ஆனா மனசுக்குள்ள இனி மேல் நாம ஒரு தனிக்காட்டு ராஜா(ராணி) ஒரு நினைப்பு !!!!!!!!

அந்த சந்தோஷத்துக்கு எல்லாம் பிரேக் அடிச்ச மாதிரி சீனீயர்ஸ் போட்டாங்க ரூல்ஸ் ....

*** அவங்க எல்லோரும் 7 மணிக்கு தான் எழுந்திரிப்பாங்க so நாங்க எல்லாரும் அதுக்கு முன்னாடி எழுந்து குளிச்சடணும்... பாத்ரூம் காக எல்லாம் wait பண்ண மாட்டாங்க அதே மாதிரி மெஸ்க்கும் சீக்கரம் போய்ட்டு வந்துடணும் ..இப்படி இன்ன பிற Rules..

சரி சரி ஜுனீயர்ஸ் அ இருந்தா இது எல்லாம் சகஜம்தான்னு எடுத்துட்டோம்...
அவங்களுக்கு டைம் பாஸே எங்களை வம்புக்கு இழுக்கறதுதான்..
நானும் ரேகிங்ல மாட்டினேன் ஆனா ரொம்ப எல்லாம் இல்லை..

ஒரு பெரிய அக்கா கூப்பிட்டு Sit down -- Stand up inu ஒரு 1 hr Excercise பண்ண சொன்னாங்க..(பின்னாளில் நாங்க ரெண்டு பேரும் எங்க எதிரில் பார்த்தாலும்.. மாமியார் மருமகள் மாதிரி லுக் விடுவோம்...சும்மா டைம் பாஸ் தான்.....)

ஒரு அண்ணா (ஐயோ அவருக்கு 'அண்ணா' ன்னு சொன்னா பிடிக்காது..சீனியர் Girls எல்லாம் அக்கா ன்னு கூப்பிடாட்டி திட்டுவாங்க...சீனியர் Guys எல்லாம் 'அண்ணா' ன்னு சொன்னா திட்டுவாங்க...நமக்கு எப்பவுமே confusion தான்..மாத்தி மாத்தி கூப்பிட்டு வாங்கி கட்டிக்குவோம்) Engg degree வாங்க எவ்வள்வு papers clear
பண்ணணும் ன்னு கேட்டாரு...தெரியாம திரு திரு ன்னு முழிச்சது இன்னும் நினைவு இருக்கு..

First year காலேஜ்ல ரொம்ப எல்லாம் enjoy பண்ணல....யார பார்த்தாலும் ஒரே பயம்...சீக்கரமே Sem வந்துடிச்சு..
என் ரூம் மேட் வேற ஹாஸ்டல் காலி பண்ணறேன்..வீட்ட விட்டுட்டு இருக்க முடியாதுன்னு ஒரே அழுகை...( 3 rd year la.. ஹாஸ்டலே காலி ஆனாலும்...வீட்டுக்கு போய் தான் ஆகணூமா ன்னு கேட்பா...home sick poi hostel sick வந்துடிச்சு அவளுக்கு)

அப்பறம் வந்தது கலகல ஜுலுஜுலு ன்னு 2 nd yr
ஹே ஹே நாங்களும் இப்ப சீனியர்ஸ் ( ஆனா 1st yr's க்கு தனி ஹாஸ்டல் போட்டுடாங்க so அவங்க எங்ககிட்ட இருந்து தப்பிச்சுட்டாங்க )

இப்ப தான் நாங்களும் காலேஜ் ஸ்டுண்ட்ஸ்க்குரிய இலக்கணத்தோடு க்ளாஸ் கட் அடிச்சுட்டு லைப்ரேரியில் தூங்கற மாதிரியான வேலை எல்லாம் ஆரம்பிச்சோம்..

ஹாஸ்டல் லைப்ல பிடிக்காத ஒரு விஷயம் மெஸ் சாப்பாடு...அது என்னவோ நைட் என்ன மெனுன்னு முன்னாடியே தெரிஞ்சுட்டு சாப்பட போறது பிடிக்கலை...(லைப்னா ஒரு thrilling வேண்டாமா...monday na சப்பாத்தி..Tuesday na இட்லின்னு என்ன இது timetable வாழ்க்கை..) உப்புமா எல்லாம் வேற எங்க சாப்பிட்டு பழக முடியும் ஹாஸ்டல்லதான்.

நைட் 8:30 வரைக்கும் தான் டிவி பார்க்க முடியும் ...8:30 க்கு முன்னாடி எல்லாம் மெகா சீரியல்தான்....அதுக்காக பார்க்காம எல்லாம் இருக்க மாட்டோம்...கரெக்ட் டைம்க்கு டிவி ஹால்ல attendence போட்ருவோம்..

3rd yr la எங்க ரூம்ல புதுசா ஒரு நபர் ஆமாங்க நான் ஒரு computer வாங்கிட்டேன்!!! ஒரே பாட்டும் படமும் தான் ரூம்ல..
காக்க காக்க படம் ரீலிஸ் ஆன டைம் அந்த சீடி தேஞ்சு போற அளவுக்கு பார்த்தோம்..( உயிரின் உயிரே பாட்டுல சூர்யா slow motion la ஓடி வருவாரு ஆனா எங்க சீடில ரொம்பபபபபபப slowaaaa வருவாரு அவ்வளவு தேச்சுட்டோம் )

நைட் ஒரு நாள் படம் பார்க்கும்போது (30 பேரு 1 ரூம்ல) கதவை சாத்த மறந்துட்டோம்...லைட் எல்லாம் off பண்ணியாச்சு...... எல்லாரும் அமைதியா படம் பார்த்துட்டு இருக்கும் போது...என் friend திடீருன்னு சைடுல பார்த்துட்டு........யாரோ நம்ம வார்டன் மாதிரி இடுப்புல கை வச்சுட்டு படம் பார்க்கறாங்க பாருன்னா....நானும் யதார்தமா திரும்பி பார்த்தா ஐயோ அது நெஜமாவே எங்க வார்டன !!!!!!!!!!
அவங்க பின்னி பெடல் எடுத்தது தனி கதைங்க...........

எங்க சீனியர்ஸ் சில பேர்க்கு அவங்க final yrla கல்யாணம் ஆகிடிச்சு...மாப்பிள்ளை எல்லாம் foriegn than ...தாலியை கட்டிட்டு., ஒரு செல் போன் வாங்கி கொடுத்து ஹாஸ்டல கொண்டு வந்து விட்டுட்டு போய்ட்டாங்க...
இவங்களும் எல்லா Corridor layum நின்னு நின்னு போன்லயே குடும்பம் நடத்தினாங்க ( என்னடா பொழப்பு இதுன்னு நாங்க எல்லாம் ஒரு லுக் ...எங்க நாமளும் சீக்கரமே மாட்டிடுவோம்ன்னு அடி வயத்துல ஒரு அனகோண்டா நெழிஞ்சது உண்மை)

Odd Sem சீஸன்ல வர்ற திருவிழா தான் "Techincal Symposium" ..
இதுக்காக 1 1/2 மாசமாவது க்ளாஸ் கட் அடிப்போம்..அந்த் event இந்த event inu எப்ப பாரு கூட்டம் கூட்டமா நின்னு கடலை போடறதுன்னு அராஜகம் பண்ணுவோம்..

"Symposium" ஸ்டார்ட் ஆனா திருவிழா ஜோதில கலந்திடுவோம்...இந்த 3 நாளும் தான் நம்ம காலேஜ் பசங்களை விட மற்ற எல்லா பசங்களும் அழகா ..ஸ்மார்ட்டா தெரியுவாங்க...(ஹும் எல்லாம் ஹார்மோன் problem..எங்க மேல எந்த தப்பும் இல்லை)

திடீருன்னு சொல்லாம கொள்ளாம final yr வந்துடும்...இவ்வளவு நாள் பொறுப்பு இல்லாம அரியர் மலையோட இருந்தவங்க எல்லாம் சீரியசா படிக்க ஆரம்பிச்சுடுவாங்க.....சில பேரு campus la place ஆகிடுவாங்க....கொஞ்ச பேர் முகத்துல எதிர்காலம் பத்தின பயம் தெரிய ஆரம்பிச்சுடும்..........ப்ராஜக்ட் submit பண்ணணும் , interview prepare பண்ணணும் ஒரே டென்சன்...

சோகம்னா என்னனு நெஜமாவே இந்த final yr la தான் எல்லாரும் உணர்ந்தோம்.... இனிமேல் யார் யார் எங்க போவோம் ...எப்போ meet பண்ணுவோம் .....meet பண்ணுவோம மாட்டோமான்னு மனசுக்குள்ள ஒரு கேள்வி ?

அப்பறம்....farewell , autograph அழுகைன்னு எங்க காலேஜ் லைப் ம் முடிஞ்து......
திரும்ப கிடைக்காத வாழ்க்கைங்க.........
எப்போ நெனைச்சாலும் மனசுக்குள்ள மழை தூறல்தான்..........

நின்று போன தூறல் மீண்டும் என்று துளிக்குமா ........????

Sunday Special

2006-10-29T12:27:00.000+05:30

Anaithu Valaiulaga Nanbargalukum Vanakkam!!!
Inaikku Sunday ..so urupadiyaa edvathu seiyalam inu nenachu
romba naal yeludhanuminu irundha enoda first blogaa eludhareann ...

Sunday ingarathu romba romba spl aana day adhuvum bachelor life laa
Early morning elundhirichu ???(Ada adhangaa endha 9:30 iku mela oru early mrng varumaee adha sonnan naan)
medhuvaa ella velaiyum mudichu ....bfst um ellama lunchinum solla mudiyatha time iku konjam saptu...
jollya tv parthu..road road aa ooru suthii enjoy panara sandhosam irukaee ada da da adha anubavicha than theriyum...
(Krishnaa ennum konja nalaiku endha bachelor lifekku endha aabathum varama parthukoopaa!!!!!)

Sari Mudhala enna pathi solarean.......

Naan romba Amaidhiana ponnu ( Apadi oru looku inga en face kku)
Ana Nejamavaa apadi ellam ella....konjam rovusu party than..
(Enkudavae irukara ellorukum therinja endha secret aa neengaluum secret aa vae vachukongaa)

Naan konjam Nallavaal....Vallaval..Nerimaianavalll....(enakkulla Thungetu irukara singatha yarum thatti elupathaa varikumm :) )

Aparam enga blore la enna panareaninu keteenganaa...
Ellar madhiriyum oru MNC la s/w Engg aa kuppai kotarean...

Sunday anaikku tv um bore adikum pothu konjam manasa rewind panni...
last week sunday enna paninoominu yosechaa
Ada diwali kaga ooruku poi irundhean...

Vettuku porathunala oru thani santhosam nga..
oru masam munadii diwali kaga ticket vangii (Sleeper bus vera) sema plan ga..
1000 than sollunga Namma ooru Namma ooru than...
bus oorkita pogum podhaa santhosam arambichudum...
chillinu kathu vara janaal open panni vachutu nama yeranga vendiya stopping
vara wait pannum podhu manasukkala oru illayaraja song
(Sorgamae Endralum adhu nama ooraa pola Varumaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!
Kancheepuram Idly Thottu kola chutney veraa engayum kedaikalamaaaa)

Diwali spll aa "Vallavan" partheengaa (Adhu oru thani kodumaii andha kodumaiaa pathi aparam solarean)

vetula nalla jolly aa weekend njoi panettu marupadiyum kelabanuminu nenaikum podha sogam vandhidthu :(
next time vettuku pora varikum phone la than ellamaee!
enna panaradhu edhuvum palagi achu...next eppo vetuku porathinu plan ellam potachuu....
mgr nalla moodla (??) irukkum podhu leavekku oru bit aa poda vendiyathu thann..

ayo sunday la pathikku mela mudiya pogthungaa innum konja neram than aparam
ofc pora time agedum...so konjam poi sunday spl work ellam seiyarean

Saringa inaikku edhu podhum..enimel adikadi santhikalam ....

C u all soooooooon again here